Too Afraid 2 Love

I’m afraid 2 love you too much
I feel like I’ve lost touch
All I can think about is you
I’ve never known a love so true
I’m lost in heaven’s kiss
My joy has become love’s bliss
You make my hair stand on its ends
Intoxicate me with your heart’s elixir again
My love transcends words I might say
Watch me show my love today
Your smile sings my heart’s melody
But-
I’m afraid to give you this ring
I’m afraid that you might want to leave
I’m afraid you’ll just abandon me.
That is why, I push you away
Yet-
Love does not know fear
Love gives, knowing More is always near
Ignore me, my soul needs you to stay
Trust and Commitment lead the way
It’s time for Fear to run away
Grace opened the door for Love’s new day
If I wasn’t afraid 2 Love you too much

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Mountains Speak: If You Listen

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Mountains Speak:  If You Listen

I went on the most amazing hike alone. I hadn’t trained for it, and man, did I feel it. It was about 10 miles. The trail was very steep and very scary. I was literally crawling up parts of it. At one point I thought, how am I going to make it to the top? I couldn’t go back. It was too steep. Then, I just heard clearly, the mountain would tell me how to do it. So, I stopped, rested, had some water, and waited for the mountain to talk to me. I looked at the mountain. It told me where I should rest. I determined where my resting points would be as I traversed up the mountain. Then, it was clear to me that I had to find well anchored sage and hold onto it as my anchors as I crawled up the mountain. My heart began to pound and beat rapidly. It felt like it was going to explode. I wouldn’t let myself panic. I just stopped, sat down and existed.

I noticed the sound of the silence. I could touch the birds as they glided onto the currents of air. I could hear their wings as the winds wisped through them. If I died here, Ok. Meanwhile, my heart beat slowed down and I felt better. I proceeded. Slowly. Finally, I made it to the top. I noticed the keys were: listening, persistence and not succumbing to fear.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life. Costly mistakes. But, whenever I have not allowed fear to dominate my choices and cloud my knowledge of who I am, I have taken the right action. Period. Whenever I have been persistent and not given up when things were difficult, I have been successful. Period. Whenever I have had faith in the fact that all my needs are always met, and there was no need for me to be motivated by limitations or lack, things have worked out. Period. Listening,Persistence and Faith. Words to live by.